Madly Ever After

There are days when you are so far disconnected that it becomes almost impossible to function. Today is one of those days.

Having spent most of my life in a position of just trying to please others and not knowing how to take care of myself, two years of being at home by myself has really been a struggle as I had to find my identity. So my sense of self is now 2 years old.

My neocortex is now going through the terrible twos again.

It’s been wide awake all night and today has been sulking in a corner, fuck knows what it’ll be like in its teens.

Reparenting yourself is very challenging. Being raised by narcissistic followers of a religious cult was not and continues not to be fun.

Still I’m working on myself. Over 10 years since I last cut and despite what I’m going through I’ve no intention of doing it again.

Thinking of getting my ear tattooed.

Part of my brain wants this to stop but I’m going on and will see things through to the natural end. I have a promise to my best friend on this.

I can understand how suicidal thoughts crop up, if anyone who reads this ever needs a hand to hold then I’m there.

Trust yourself and you can trust others.