Madly Ever After

I’ve changed my domain name and feel much better for it. A domain name for a blog is part of your identity and my old one jarred with me. Maybe there’ll be rainbows and unicorns as I build this site.

My new manager at work. He’s an ok sort of person but I have no idea what he’s trying to do. Next to no communication, only willing to talk about my health issues under duress, failure to engage me in significant work despite me being the senior tech and able to answer all questions relayed through others.

So I drew him a card. It was Judgement. My first thought was ‘Haha fucker’ but then on reflection I saw someone struggling to make their way who hasn’t learnt how to listen and trust those around him, a reflection of my former self.

I can’t imagine how it’s like for a new manager to have to deal with an abuse survivor, lived experience is impossible to explain. I feel like I’m treated with kid gloves though. Forgiveness and building bridges and trust. I’m not a fragile person unless something hits my resonant frequency.

There seems to be a huge intersection between DBT and tarot. Not accepting things at face value and properly thinking rather than just reacting.