Madly Ever After

I’m using this to unload a massive panic/anxiety attack that is preventing me from sleeping.

For anyone who hasn’t experienced these: my mind races, over analyses the situation, reworks solutions, comes up with more variations on what could happen, adds in the variations on outcomes, then reworks those, looking for any possible outcome when it it can all become good in the end. Whilst at the same time knowing the anxiety will prevent me from actioning any of these courses of action.

Think Dr Strange in Infinity War searching for the one possible outcome but without the benefit of being blipped 5 years to see that it worked out!

9 of Swords, oh thanks for your guidance in telling me I’m fucking stressed and anxious and worried about how my job will go and how I can be there for those I care about and love..

Also this card makes me think of acceptance of what has happened and that things will work out and that there are people out there who genuinely care about and love me and that I’m not facing this alone.