Madly Ever After

There’s reasons, mental and physical health. Both of which dull your motivation.

Today I had a call from the doc’s I’ve been battling with tummy issues for a fair few months. It was thought to be an auto-immune response but after a biopsy they are pretty sure it’s several precancerous bowel tumors.

One colonoscopy done already, i’ll have had more people peerining up my butt this year than most major porn stars. In the face of impending doom we joke so as not to cry. if it still existed i’d post a link to goatse . cx.

I aintn’t dead. Doc’s think this is a quick thing to fix.

It’ll explain why my system feels like shit all the time though. Catching bowel cancer before it sets in is a win. i’m lucky i was ill enough and had insurance to get it checked out.

I think of everyone who battles through sickness just make ends meet and then it’s too late to help them. My friend Les passed away from throat cancer because he just battled through and when diagnosed was gone in under a year. Never smoked either.

Beacuse i’ve been so ill over the last few years, i’ve lost my status at work and had to take a pay cut. Thinking is such a strain and getting enough food in to run the system is a problem. From IBS to bowel tumours.

My moral is at an all time low.

Giving up is an option but I want to go on.

Live, love, survive! There’s no blame on anyone because of this. Shit happens.