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Therapy and why a good therapist helps
I have been down for quite a while but today my therapist has really helped. She’s helped me get out of my negative thought patterns, at least for a while, and I’ve fe;t a lot of self-love for the first time in ages. When I was a teen I had a Wolverine tee-shirt which said…
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When the heart takes root it blooms
I haven’t written in here for a while. Things have been up and down and my psychology has been in a mess. Life is a game of snakes and ladders, you plof along hopping to hit a ladder but end up on a snake all to often. The corollary to the title is that heart…
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Depression (all the TWs apply)
So for the first time in ages I’ve been ideating, I hate this feeling. Ended up in a situation where I can see no way out of and feel trapped and alone and lost. Everything is a trigger and I can’t cope. I need to leave the position I’m in at work but have a…
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I’ve been asked to display at a gallery
Two drawings which I have decided to call Focused/Unfocused. I’m not linking to this page as they’ll track back to my real identity. I’m shocked and surprised by the request and have been asked to put a price on them. Maybe if sold as a pair as having looked at them together maybe they should…
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Recharging yourself from other people
I guess this is the definition of being an emotional vampire.Bear with me though because this is about connection and how we humans need to be with others who support and encourage and don’t bring us down. When you are with others whom you feel happy and comfortable and acknowledged by then your inner judge…
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Anxious Avoidant
This is a deeply personal post. TW cPTSD/abandonment/alcohol/assault Face your fears says the DBT handbook. So what am I afraid of most? I’m most afraid of those I connect with leaving me and that my mind will lash out against me for not doing enough to try and keep them close and then in circles…
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The Medical System or on how you’re supposed to manage your own treatment
This is a challenging thing to write about. Have you ever been trapped in the system? I guess anyone reading this has. When you’re emotionally unstable and people keep asking you to arrange appointments, provide paperwork, organise the medical treatment you need on your own, without help or guidance as to what you need or…
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Defining yourself in the world
There have been days recently where I’ve felt like I’ve been losing myself, too many emotions and issues to deal with. But with each of these setbacks I find myself more grounded to myself. I can’t cope much of the time but every time I get some breathing space I find the grip on who…
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Executive Function Dysregulation
Having been dysregulated for several days I’ve finally managed to clear up part of my flat. It wasn’t that my executive abilities took over but more that instinct took over and cleared up the cat food and leftovers to the bin. 30c heat set off my smell instinct. I know why I’m massively dysregulated, my…
Madly Ever After 