Tag: mental health
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Making Jigsaws in the Dark
Putting yourself back together after any sort of break down is so hard. I have been dissociated in varying scales for so long it’s impossible to describe to anyone who hasn’t experienced it. It is definitely over a month since I had executive control, going by my laundry and kitchen sink. If I was taking…
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Therapy and why a good therapist helps
I have been down for quite a while but today my therapist has really helped. She’s helped me get out of my negative thought patterns, at least for a while, and I’ve fe;t a lot of self-love for the first time in ages. When I was a teen I had a Wolverine tee-shirt which said…
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When the heart takes root it blooms
I haven’t written in here for a while. Things have been up and down and my psychology has been in a mess. Life is a game of snakes and ladders, you plof along hopping to hit a ladder but end up on a snake all to often. The corollary to the title is that heart…
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Anxious Avoidant
This is a deeply personal post. TW cPTSD/abandonment/alcohol/assault Face your fears says the DBT handbook. So what am I afraid of most? I’m most afraid of those I connect with leaving me and that my mind will lash out against me for not doing enough to try and keep them close and then in circles…
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Defining yourself in the world
There have been days recently where I’ve felt like I’ve been losing myself, too many emotions and issues to deal with. But with each of these setbacks I find myself more grounded to myself. I can’t cope much of the time but every time I get some breathing space I find the grip on who…
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Last day of DBT ,,, for now
We’ve reached the end of our DBT sessions for now. The Boy and I are much happier and more connected than we’ve ever been. Now we have to practise these skills on our own for a few weeks and hopefully get on our hoped for intensive DBT course which may break through some of the…
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Synesthesia v Hyperaudio sensitivity
Our (me and The Boy) major physical trigger is audio. Yet to work out completely why but I guess there’s a huge element of being shouted and screamed at. Maybe one day the blanks in our memory will be readable but until then it’s an embodied emotional response to certain sounds. When the emotional response…
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Today was a good day said The Boy
With apologies to A.A. Milne. There’s times when just sitting in the sun and generally not giving a fuck really helps said Pooh to Piglet. The Boy now has a tan halfway up his arms, well a lesser white than he usually is. None of The Boys daemons have been around today but this has…
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DBT triangle
So in DBT (Dialect Behavioural Therapy) there is a triangle of the internal systems. The three core systems are: Threat: what puts you into fligt/fight/freeze or various states thereof Drive: what motivates you to get out of the threat state Soothe: What calms you and makes you happy There’s a constant imbalance between all 3…
Madly Ever After 